Pysical Contact

Touch. The thing that enhances our perception. It also makes us slow to respond at times. It's him again. I know, I know. Really him? Yes. What the hell is wrong with me? I have spent the last 6 mothns downplaying everything. Now, when something does happen, I think that it is no big deal, or that it means very little. Perhaps it does? Or not..... or never. I can't read the signs anymore, because I have been so wrong in the past. It hurts to evern open myself up to the possibility  of happiness with him. My counsin always says; ''Let yourself be happy." I really do want to, I just can't.