I Feel

I don't know any longer. I have spent so much time and energy figuring him out. The incredible thing is, we are the same person. We have so, and yet so little in common. I can read him thou, I think he knows that. He's one to never show his real feeling, and I can understand that. He's been hurt before, and is cynical. I wish he would be as honest as he says he is. I know that is a lot to ask of someone. Still, I guess because I'm a blatantly honest person, I expect others to be the same. He's not obviously. I wish.....I could kiss him. I have so many opportunities to, but I can never bring myself to do it. See, we are friends, and I don't want to make things even weirder. Se we already have a strange relationship. I found out he liked me a while ago. So I, thought; "How cute!", then later and when I had spent more time with him, I began to think; "Oh, he's cute!" I began to fall for him, and because I'm a honest and obnoxious person, I told him I liked him. However, I told him after he told me he liked me as a "friend" and nothing more. My friends think otherwise. They think, and know he's lying. So now every time we're together, I wonder when he looks at me or we have cute little awkward moments, if he feels what I do. Yet I feel so much, I don't know if a guy actually has the capability to feel what I do. Maybe, there is one out there. I just wish I knew it was him.