Consumed

The funny thing is I feel, normal. Strange way to start an explanation, but still. I never feel normal. Maybe it’s the fact that Christmas break is starting. Then again, it could be things have changed. I like change, or so I used to tell myself. I am naturally brave, and yet thins time, my bravery is threatening to bail on me. It has in the past so often. Now when it seems like could be content with if failing, I want to succeed. I know I haven’t even begun to clarify, my problem. I can’t. I wish I could, however it’s state is still to fragile. I apologize for my randomness, I am slightly overwhelmed. It’s been a while since my thoughts were consumed with someone other than myself.